The first time I heard the term “undercover lightworker” said was by Doreen Virtue at Hay House’s I Can Do It Conference (which usually comes to Vancouver each year) in 2012. I went with my dear colleague April Bellia and a few other cool chicks to get inspired by the likes of the late Wayne Dyer and Marianne Williamson, and more. 30 minutes in, one of the cameramen had fainted because of the high vibe energy that was in the room at the Queen Elizabeth Theatre. It was one of the first bigger “conscious” events I had attended.
I was on the verge of launching Conscious PR and it was one of those events that reaffirmed that I was on the right direction as a social entrepreneur. But if you’ve had a few careers, businesses, or relationship/parental statuses over your life, you know that there are pivots and the vision isn’t always crystal clear.
I love this photo.
I dug it up while clearing out old photos at my parents’ (decluttering and organizing is one of my grown-up callings in this lifetime) and it’s of a time when I likely wasn’t plagued with the mires of life, didn’t worry, imagined the possibilities, and could just be a kid.
I went through school not knowing when I wanted to “be” when I grew up, but I knew that I loved words. Some of my potential careers included:
- Artist
- Astronaut
- Pediatrician
- Architect
- Author
- Film Publicist
Marketer or entrepreneur was never on the list, though when I first took the Myers-Briggs test in University, Marketing Manager was one of those careers that were ideal for my personality type(s) at the time. “Executive” is on the list for INTJs too.
Over a decade later, I find myself not only running my own business as a Public Relations Pro, but also having becoming more clear on my personality type, some of the new careers that are supposed to be ideal for me that I’m now actually interested in include:
- HR Diversity Manager
- Organizational Development Consultant
- Customer Service Manager
- Investor / Financial Advisor (in the field of impact investing, more particularly)
And then more recently:
- Treasure hunter (I’m more interested in finding valuables in messy places than organizing them)
- Ethical vlogger
- City beautifier (for lack of a better term… I’d love to inject more colour into cities, starting with Vancouver)
I think I’ve finally decided what I’m supposed to be when I grow up.
It’s between a traveller (who seeks out vegan food and eco-friendly/humanitarian destinations, of course), and an undercover lightworker.
You see, the only thing I’ve really wanted to do is travel the world, ever since my parents kept encyclopedia-style books and a globe of the world in my bedroom. Space still fascinates me, but since that frontier’s still a ways away as a career (and I never liked math and physics enough to go into Science), the rest of the world is my ideal destination.
When I visited New York for the first time on my honeymoon in April this year, I was eating the best food I’ve had in my life, visiting places I never thought I would. I thought to myself, I’ve made it. I’ve hit a pinnacle and it can’t get better than this. Only, I know deep in my soul that it can, because I’ve got way more places on the list I want to travel to, and I’m going to have to figure out how I can get to each of them by stepping into the “grown up” roles I find myself landing in lately.
It’s been a bitch of a year.
But I’m starting to realize why I’ve been put at this place at this time, why my business is going through a transition year, and why I’ve had to work these side hustles to emotionally break down – not because of the work, more due to adjusting to new routines and learning to interact differently with others close to me.
There is a sliver of light I can see at the end of all of it, and it’s there that I know I can have the impact I know I’m meant to, and that I’ve been craving so much for.
The thing about undercover lightworkers is that it’s not about the visible impact, but the slow, incremental steps toward the light that almost no one sees or gives you credit for.
The more I meditate (it’s been 3 years since I first learned TM and have been meditating daily), the more I feel I’m getting those intuitive hits that tell me I’m on the right path, even when it seems like a fucking rocky as hell path.
If that sounds like you, know that you’re my peep. Forever. And I got your back.
So do the angels and our guides. Keep the faith and know that we’ll get there. Hit me up on social media and let me know how I can help you.
Here’s to the light.
