This is an archived blog from when I ran Conscious Public Relations Inc. from 2008-2018. Excuse the potential outdated-ness!
I admit, sometimes I do not know what I am doing.
It has been an insanely busy week with two launches going simultaneously. Things are under control, but yesterday I had one of those “what the hell am I doing” moments. It took me a while to figure it out.
One of the campaigns I am working on deals with some heavy issues. And while I think I am doing a pretty good job, I am realizing that even custom pitching cannot be perfect. It works for some, and not for others. One outlet will pick up an interview quite quickly, and another I have to really work for. It started to give me this feeling that I was inadequate (whether that is true or not, it’s the feeling that I’m pointing out). That’s when all the mental chatter started coming.
I realized that throughout my life I have tried a lot to please people. It’s probably why I got into PR – because I realized that my work could put smiles on people’s faces. But when the ‘pleasure’ from the other person isn’t quite there – I get that feeling of inadequacy. And that is going to take some time to fix.
I’m double fisting two books: Dr. Sukhi’s Beyond Body Beyond Mind (which I have read before and am relearning again) and Charles Eisenstein’s Sacred Economics, which is surprisingly a lot more about the human condition than it is economics so far. Some of the passages are lessons I can learn with regards to my own feelings.
Dr. Sukhi: “money and stuff do not create a happy and fulfilled person. Happiness and fulfillment can only come from within.” I add here that even the happiness of others does not create happiness in me. You think it would, but it is not necessarily so.
He continues: “the resonance and vibration of our inner world (subatomic particles) directly influences what we achieve in our outer world (real life results).” At the time I was getting that “oh shit” feeling, it obviously did not help me in improving the situation. It was only after I went for a 20 minute walk that I was able to clear my head and get back to resolving it.
I’m thankful for the challenges that teach me lessons about myself and business. For guidance from others’ wisdom, and the wisdom in myself.
Happy weekend!
