This is an archived blog from when I ran Conscious Public Relations Inc. from 2008-2018. Excuse the potential outdated-ness!
It’s been one of those weeks. The sun was here, and then it poured, and now it’s back. I’ve learned that my emotions are stronger than the weather, which is not always a good thing.
So much so that I exhausted myself. With the launch of Conscious PR I was in a go-go-go mentality. The support has been amazing, and I had a few opportunities for work come by. And even when I was still pushing – and am still pushing – to get awareness out there, everything just sort of fell apart emotionally.
My ego was attacking myself for not being successful soon after having launched. As I look back it was perhaps my ego that had also told me that everything was going to come together just because. My ego has been very strong throughout my life, so I am constantly battling the fact that it isn’t real and always tells me things that aren’t true about myself and my experience.
Last night I went to one of the Conscious Divas’ Diva Date Nights and although I didn’t go in with the highest of spirits, I went in with the highest intention: To just be. And be I did.
The theme was Celebrating the Divine Feminine. While every event is already just for women, this was different. We talked about womanhood, yes, but also honouring our ancestry. About what was sacred to us. And about cycles. This is what resonated with me the most. The universe – and not just women’s bodies – moves in cycles. We are in summer in one phase, full of trust, and love… and then in Winter, in fear and in pain, the next. This is the experience of the human condition. As women perhaps we are more in tune with it. But the more we are aware the more we can connect with each other. I was able to connect with some extraordinary women just by hearing their story and having it relate to mine. Or just by making eye connection.
I am in awe of the beauty and strength and vulnerability that these women brought to a 2.5 hour experience of my life. This is why I go to these events – every time, I connect with and learn something new about myself at a Diva Date Night. And I am so thankful for that newfound knowledge.
Now, I feel as if I am floating and not drowning so much. My daily meditation and calling on my guides is helping me bit by bit, and soon I feel that I will be surfing the tide. It will be crazy busy, yes, but sometimes we are most in our element when we are crazy busy doing what we love to do.
Thank you for reading and I hope you are honouring yourself for your strength and your divinity today, whether the sun is out or not.
