It’s been a strange week.
And I’m sure the solar eclipse has something to do with it. According to Conscious Calendars, today is a red day (on red days you are supposed to do almost nothing and just rest) followed by a few cautionary yellow days and then a good stretch of five green days (green means GO!) starting Thursday. So if you’ve felt funky like I have this past week, you’re not alone.
Have you ever had that feeling that you’re nobody or nothing and you don’t know who or what you are or what your purpose on Earth is?
Like when you read your name over and over that it becomes meaningless and you question if that’s your name at all?
It’s been that kind of week for me. And although I know in my head I’ve done some incredible things and affected many people on this Earth in my lifetime, I’ve been getting this nagging, soul-dragging feeling that it’s all not enough. Don’t you hate that?
I’ve been listening to my intuition a lot this past year. It might be a combination of now practicing TM for over three years, or just not caring as much about what used to make me worry the last few years. After all, I’m in my mid-thirties and I just can’t be bothered anymore. I’ve got no energy for complaints, even though they’ve been taking up a lot of my headspace lately. I hate thinking too much but I can’t help it.
So I did what any over-thinker would do, and I went back to my own advice. Smart advice that I’ve told myself before and seem to forget.
This one’s from the Conscious PR blog archives.
You see, I believe that sometimes we do feel that we are nobody or nothing because we are actually everyone and everything. I’m not going to go all woo-woo on you because you’ve probably heard it a ton from the likes of Gabby Bernstein or Mastin Kipp. But I really do think it’s true. When you strip off the skin and the thoughts and emotions, we’re made up of the same energy as everyone and everything. Pure energy. Potential love at its purest. And we often forget that, but if you keep a blog or journal like I do, you can always go back to that and remember that you’re smarter than you think you are right now.
You’ve just forgotten that we’re always perfect in the present moment.
Don’t get me wrong, the Universe may not be perfect in the present moment, but as long as we are content with ourselves right now, I think there’s the potential to always be okay. Just like the eclipse, I like to believe that darkness shall pass.
Last year, when I took a program called Horse Wisdom, I wrote “Presence” on the stone that we were given as tokens of remembrance (christened by the horse’s tongue) because horses are such powerful creatures that they know what’s up in the present moment at all times; they don’t concern themselves with the future, even though they’re so intuitive that they know what they want and whether they’re in harm’s way or not. It’s like they have an energetic forcefield around them that senses both good and bad. I have no idea if that’s accurate at all, but I’d love for any horse experts to chime in.
I don’t have any other big life answers right now, just that for you. I hope you’re content with it. 🙂